Are You a Camel or a Horse?

“Camels are traitorous: they walk thousands of paces and never seem to tire. Then suddenly, they kneel and die. But horse tire bit by bit. You always know how much you can ask of them, and when it is that they are about to die.” from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Which are you and why?

I believe I am a camel. I just keep going and keep going until everything just sneaks up on me and I realized that I feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. So how do you cultivate horse tendencies? How does one learned to be aware of their limitations? How do you learn how much you can ask of yourself? Well, one way is to go until you collapse then the next time you’ll know. That was a very camel like thing to say. LOL!

I think that a balance of both is good. I believe that both traits have values. The key is to what you tend towards and how to shift into the other trait when appropriate. Sometimes there is a need to keep going and going until it’s all done. Most times however, it best to know exactly how much you can ask of yourself.

I think it’s probably easier for a horse to become a camel than a camel to become a horse. However being the camel that I am, I’m probably biased.

Are You Playing Full Out in Your Life?

He (The Master) holds nothing back from life; therefore he is ready for death.

Verse 50 from the Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu

When I read this line I began to think about what I might be holding back from in my life and how often do I do that. What does it mean to hold back? Here’s a small example. There was a meeting planned for last Sunday. Sunday morning I got an e-mail that it had been canceled. I knew a friend of mine who was going most likely would not check her e-mail. I thought to call her, but decided I would take a nap then call her. I woke up too late be able to call her to to stop her from showing up to the canceled meeting – a 45 minute drive for her. Now, there are lots of reasons why this was not my responsibility, and why I shouldn’t have to worry about this… and that’s not the point. My point is, in that moment, I held back from life my compassion, my support, and my leadership. I held myself back.

How else do I hold back? Perhaps it may be that I don’t smile enough or say a kind word when I think of it. It could be that I pass the litter by on my walk instead of picking it up. It may be that I don’t call my friends when I desire to. I could hold myself back by not speaking up or speaking out about what is going on around me. Perhaps I’m too busy to give of myself in support of my fellow human beings, however that looks. Perhaps holding myself back means I complain about all that is going on around me instead of changing it or shifting it. Holding back to me means that I’m not playing full out.

Do I believe that I can do 100% of my ideas and thoughts 100% of the time? No, I don’t think that I can. We have over 60,000 thoughts a day and if we acted on all of them we would be running around doing lots of scattered stuff. I don’t think that is an effective way to move forward in your life. However, I do believe that there are times when our gut, our instincts, tells us when something is important. If you don’t do it, afterward you know you held something of yourself back. This was the case with me not calling my friend. The Master plays full out in their life. They hold nothing back. When death comes to the physical form, the Master rejoices in a life spent to the fullest measure. The master leaves nothing undone and has no regrets, so death is a simple matter of laying down to rest.

In love and light


What Is Meant by True Goodness?

She (the Master) is good to the people who are good. She is also good to the people who aren’t good. This is true goodness.

Verse 49 from the Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu

As I read this verse I was challenged by the concepts in it. I understand the “you are good to people regardless of how they act toward you.” This is a basic concept of many religions. It is the “do unto others” and “turn the other cheek” concepts that are found in many spiritual practices. What I didn’t understand is how that goodness was different from true goodness the last line spoke of. “How can there be different degrees of goodness?” I asked myself, “Is not goodness just goodness?” Then I began to look at it from the overall perspective that the Tao Te Ching has been speaking of up to this point. I looked at it from the perspective of our connection to the Tao.

When someone is fully connected to the Tao, they don’t have to think about being good. That goodness and the actions, thoughts, and words arising from that goodness comes to them as naturally as breathing. They are good, not because it is socially acceptable, or because it is a religious charge, or because it is a law to be followed, or because they are worried about karma. They are good because that is what arises within them with they fully embrace the Tao and its concepts. This “goodness” is it not an abstract concept. It is not a thought process. It is not even a choice that they make. It is their instinct. Goodness is who they are. This is what is meant by true goodness. The Master has fully embraced the Tao and no longer thinks about being good. She is Goodness embodied.

In love and light


Allow Voice to the Whisperings of Your Heart

“When you want something with all your heart, that’s when you are closest to the soul of the world.” by Paulo Coelho in The Alchemist

Isn’t it refreshing to know that the deepest desire and longing of your heart is the language that speaks to the Soul of the World? These are the wants and desires that your heart longs for. It is the whisperings in the middle of the night that say “Dance! Paint! Travel! Take a chance with your heart!” It is these wants and desires that propel you into your destiny. It is these wants and desires that are part of your soul’s paths. They are the reason you are here on this earth. It is the moments when you think: “I want to….” and a passion and longing to do this deed fills your heart and the souls of the world hear you and respond to that want. The language of the Soul of the World is one of love and passion, and when you speak in the same language you are united to it as one.

When you are closest to the Soul of the World, you are closest to your True Nature. That True Nature is the nature of Spirit and the nature of oneness with all things and beings. Passion and love bring you closer to that place of oneness. They bring you closer to that connection with all the world. When you are in this place, everything becomes crystal clear. The “hows” and “whys” that you may have struggled with before drop away and the universe rearranges itself to provide you with the way to have these loves and passion fulfilled. Do not be afraid of these whisperings of your heart. Embrace them and allow them freedom and voice. Allow them to guide you closer and closer to your True Nature. Allow them to guide you to the soul of the world. Allow these passions and loves, wants and desires, to guide you to that connection with the One that we are all a part of – the Soul of the World.

In love and light


What Do You Fear About the Unknown?

“…people need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they want and need.” by Paulo Coelho in The Alchemist

When I read these words, what I first stopped to think about was “what is it I fear about the unknown?” Then the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it wasn’t the great unknown that I feared. The nature of the word unknown means that I can not know something. How could I fear that which I don’t know? I realized that what I fear is that the results and outcomes of my choices may not be what I want them to be. So “the unknown” I fear is a fear because I can’t forecast what the outcome will be of situations. It’s unknown. I want to KNOW what is going to happen and plan accordingly! Maybe that’s why I have a controller personality! I always want to guarantee the outcome, so I do everything in my power to make sure that what I want is the most likely outcome of a given situation. Wow. That sounds really tiring doesn’t it? Take my word for it – it is.

These lines speak to me about confidence and trust. I remember an interview I read about Donald Trump. He spoke about losing it all and how he knew that he became rich once before and that he could do it again. If you know you are capable and able to achieve your desires and needs than there really is nothing to fear. If you trust in the universe to show you the way, lend a helping hand, and clear obstacles, then you have nothing to fear. I know that I’m not quite there yet. I still can’t quite wrap my mind around the fact that I can make $500,000 dollars in a year. So the fear creeps in and the unknown takes over. The questions of “how?” and “why?” take over and I think, “Well, what I have is good enough.” Guess what? I deserve more than “Good enough” and so do you! So I begin with what I think of as smaller things (By the way, The Universe doesn’t care if it’s 5 or 500,000 dollars. It’s all the same to The Universe. It’s our own selves that put the large and small on something) and create that confidence and trust of which I wrote earlier. As I believe, that gives energy to the situation and shifts it. It also shifts me. It supports me in removing the fear of the unknown and into knowing that I am capable of achieving want I want and need.

In love and light